Beep Beep

we got a new car the other day.

it's for Charlie

he actually really likes it

and figured out how the horn worked pretty quickly

I swear the kid actually smiles

(I just can't catch it on film very often)

'racing' is the new favorite past time

they never get tired of it

it's so super exciting

and something they can do together

and really enjoy

thank goodness it has a handle ... it makes steering so much easier. 

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oh, and something really special happened today.

Charlie came to me. 

I wasn't holding anything that he would want. 

And he just walked straight up to me and lifted his

arms for me to lift him up. 

... and I held him and I hugged him ...

and then he was off again to explore.

I must admit, my heart started beating faster.

I've been talking to Bob about how Charlie won't just come

to me, and while I know he hasn't been home all that

long, I was beginning to wonder if maybe I wasn't doing enough

or maybe there was something I was doing wrong. 

So to see him smile, and just come walking quickly towards me,

made me ohhh so happy and I felt a twinge of relief.

I'm not saying that the attachment process is done and now we can just

live happily ever after, but I'm saying that things are going in the right direction.

later in the evening he came up to me a bunch more times. 

I kept saying to Bob, 

'You saw that right? He came just came up to me!'

We were watching kpop videos and the kids were dancing.

So periodically Charlie would just walk over for me to pick him up

and he'd just want to sit next to me. 

He'd look up at me and laugh and wave his arms while he danced

and then after a short bit he'd get down and walk around some more. 

It just feels good to be at this point. 

To feel like you're seeing some progress and not just thinking you are.

Now if we could just get the kids to share, I'd really be flying high!